my prayers are often clones- asking for guidance, purpose, truth, persistence, perseverance & strength. ever so often i'll review my prayer journal- seems i've been putting myself through the same tests since 31 march 2006. i forget the things that i put myself through, so i have to go back and read so i don't make the same mistakes twice. (i should probably read it more)
anywho- this particular night i was praying for direction (guidance)... what do i want? it used to be so easy. i could tell you exactly what i wanted, and the age i would have it by. NOW, the woes of adultdom and nyc residency weigh heavy. so i prayed... and He brought me back to my foundation:
- peace of mind- being content, having faith in HIM, internal joy & a general appreciation for life and what it has to offer
- integrity- holding true to my personal values; being honest with myself & others about who i am
- love- i crave this from a select few; and i give it in varying degrees (i'm aware that part may need a bit of improvement)
- dreams- "if you can imagine it, it is real" -picasso
"if i truly want something... nothing can stop me, but i lost my way and for a second thought i was asking too much. i think because i couldn't come up with the exact path as in the past, i couldn't see 'it' happening. but i have never been the one to take the safe route... i have always blazed my own trail and done things people were/are weary of, taking a risk, a chance, stepping out on a limb. i can't believe i lost that. i'm reclaiming it RIGHT NOW."
3 comments:
...someone had a lot on her mind today...
Well dammit then stomp the floor and announce to the world your power! Tell them what you are going to do and who you are!
i need you to write the next story. i need the feel of your words for this one
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